My Inner Green

Just shy of a year ago, I embarked on a project to change my world. To say I am amazed at the results thus far is a tad understated …I shall write more of my inner journey at a later date, but for today, I want to make a quick sketch for you of the place I find myself in.

 I have moved from the lush and beautiful rain forest of Vancouver Island to the south Okanagan area of British Columbia, a place that is unique in its geographical aspects and climate, for it is considered semi-desert. The town is situated between two large lakes and surrounded by low mountains – although it is very different, it also is stunningly beautiful. Once surrounded by fruit orchards, many have now been transformed  into vineyards and wineries. Hiking and biking opportunities abound, and one is never far from the water.

 Gaaaaaack – this is beginning to sound like a tourist brochure…

 In a way, that is apropos for there are many, many tourists that visit here: one and a half million per year is the last figure I saw quoted. I am sure you can appreciate that impact on a small city of just over thirty thousand people. Penticton draws its name from the Syilx First Nation (that name itself has a wonderful symbolic meaning, do look it up) who called it Sin-peen-tick-tin. The tourist brochures translate this as ‘a place to stay forever’, which seems to somewhat miss the point. Other, more subtle translations say ‘permanent place’ and  variations – a place to linger, perhaps and to enjoy the world with fresh eyes and fresh spirit. It is undeniable that there is something here that calls deeply to the spirit.

 I am certainly not a world traveler, although I have explored my own vast country in a way few others have – there are two other places that have called to my spirit so deeply and compellingly. What is this call? It could be ascribed to the beauties of nature, or various psychological constructs, or simply delights of exploring a new place, although I suspect it goes much deeper than that. I know my words are not adequate to the idea, but I believe the call is to some deep and primordial place in the human soul…

 Eileen Delehanty Pearkes wrote this of my birthplace, a few hundred miles to the east of here, in a book called “The Inner Green”:

I knew I was standing not only at a drainage divide in a narrow valley along an abandoned rail line at the origin of a minor river called the Salmo, but also as a witness to one of the Earth’s central landscape functions: the movement of melted snow or rainwater into a welcoming, but distant ocean. Like a point on a gothic arch, this branch of the vast Columbia River watershed begins at a precise point, representing the apex of twin drainage systems that drop with great elegance and complexity from the mountains to the plateaus and then to the ocean. Unlike a gothic arch, this river locus had no pretences, no heavenly aspirations. It was on the ground, placed as such to remind me that authenticity has its source in the Earth, the personal terrain, the place of truth.

 These words never fail to thrill me, to move me to that place of authenticity, the earth and the environs we are located in. One small town in western Canada is much like another, as we humans impose our cultural trends on the landscape. For those who look and seek, there will always be some deeper undercurrent of truth – the very formation and movement and regeneration of the land that births us.

 I have moved from the mundane descriptive to the banal metaphysical – I rarely apologize for my words, though I must here – for as I said, my words are not equal to the task. Never the less, I find myself in a place where I wake each morning to the sure and certain rootedness of spirit that tells me I am just where I ought to be at this particular time. Where every aspect of the landscape calls to me to learn and explore. Where I feel, in the most physical embodiment of feeling with my whole body, connected and alive and cradled by a generous spirit. I shall endeavour to live up to this gift, my imaginary friend. Thanks for being here with me.

10 comments on “My Inner Green

  1. says:

    My happiness for you as I read this is enveloping. A big cyber hug for you! I sometimes fantasize of being there with you, helping you in the restaurant and enjoying and exploring all that Nature has to offer. Oh, yeah, and the the Ironmen!



  2. Anonymous says:

    Great blog Vivian.


  3. Rod Smelser says:

    Vivian, I am sure you didn’t mean it as tourism material, … but I’ll bet you could make a good living at that!

    We’re always struck by the beauty of the Okanagan, but I have to say I am also a bit saddened, too. My first visits there were in the late 50s, and at that time Kelowna was a truly idyllic little city, like something out of a kid’s storybook. I half expected to see Christopher Robin and Pooh coming round the corner. By about 1970, it started to change, not always for the better.


    • I am with you on that one, Rod – our human changes are often not in accordance with spirit of place. And I too, am saddened by what Kelowna has become…in some of our small cities and towns and villages, a little spark of that spirit has not been altogether obliterated – that is what I see here. Wherever is has not gone forever into hiding, we may be able to resurrect it – come the day of judgement against rapacious developers and blindly stupid politicians.


  4. Anonymous says:

    to be cradled by a generous spirit is indeed a gift

    Enjoy my friend, you deserve the lush life….


  5. Wow, this piece just reinforces my sentiment that we are kindred spirits who have yet to meet. I am thrilled for your adventure. Many I know have relocated during this Dragon year – a time of drastic and evocative change. My hope is that you discover deep contentment and inspiration – drawing it, as it were, from deep within the earth. So happy to ‘read you,’ once again! And I WILL look up Sin-peen-tick-tin!


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